Ryan asked during the taping:

Do you ever feel like you want to step out of yourself?

Well, of course the answer is yes.

Some call it quarter-life crisis. But, I'd come off as a whining brat if I romanticize this phase of mine with fancy titles, just to get understanding or sympathy.

In all honesty, I am just in a rut.

Right now, I want to step out of myself and well, step into places where I can just loaf around. Cyberspace. Middle-earth. Wherever. Faerie? Sure.

I'm thinking maybe Sky killed me. Maybe I'm just a human with her daemon separated from her. No spirit. No life. No one home.

Of course, I want to come back sometime soon. After I've gotten my "rest." I'd be content to spend an entire week here in my study, reading books, listening to music, staring at the wall. Crawling around the web and connecting with people that I've never seen, will never see.

There's a strange comfort in such correspondence. Sometimes, it can be a little empty. But, maybe right now, that fits right in with the rest of me.





posted by u l a n _ at 6:38 PM